Recflection 4

This is Elam. Like most Feline People, he's pretty complex and he's certainly a oner - I've never met anyone like him. My friend T (the only other person who's lived with him - two days and that was enough for her) says we're a good match...

So I've been thinking of taking up the sword again and Lo and Behold, my neighbors have a goodly selection of fencing foils for me to play with. One is right handed and when Tobe found he was a left handed fencer, he tied some ribbon @ the tip of the sword and a string dangling a rubber spider. Tobe and Tanya share their home with cat's too.

Hanging in my Shop yesterday, I was baiting Elam with the sword-spider toy. He was getting angrier and more frustrated by the minute so I mellowed out and tried to make it easy for him to get the creepy crawly. Go figure, that's not what he wanted; he was after the strands of ribbon at the tip of the foil, something I hadn't considered and was making really tough for him fixated on the spider as I was.

I'm thinking that's the struggle between me (maybe all of us) and the Creator. I got choices hanging from the end of the foil and I want the ribbon; I'm getting angry 'cause it ain't easy. Well, it ain't easy because it would seem that Creation is intent on me having the spider. Am I BAD because I want the ribbon? Read - would I be me if I just settled for what seems to be the Universal Intent? Would it be GOOD if I just accepted the Creator's gift of the spider? Read - if it comes easier, is it ultimately the better choice for me? How can I create the happiest existence for myself; by choosing the ribbon and going for it or by taking the spider and making it work for me - perhaps in ways I'd never imagined?

I don't know... MAYBE. The questions go on...

Photo by Phin